My Midlife Crisis, as told through the Tarot

I am… not particularly old. At this moment I am 34 years old, not quite middle-aged by modern standards. I feel like I still have far to go and many new life experiences still await me. I don’t feel old enough to have a midlife crisis.

About.com Divorce Support guide Cathy Meyer states in her article What Is A Midlife Crisis? that a midlife crisis is usually experienced by people between the ages of 40 and 60. She goes on to list several of the uncomfortable feelings a person might experience during a midlife crisis, including:

Unhappiness with life and the lifestyle that may have provided them with happiness for many years.

Boredom with people and things that may have been of interest to them before.

Feeling a need for adventure and change.

Questioning the choices they have made in their lives and the validity of decisions they made years before.

Confusion about who they are and where they are going.

I resonate strongly with these five statements. And this adds to my confusion because I don’t feel old enough to be experiencing midlife, let alone a crisis. I’m trying to reframe my feelings as something other than a crisis. “Crisis” evokes something terrible, something I’d rather avoid.

cri·sis/ˈkrīsis/
Noun:

A time of intense difficulty, trouble, or danger.
A time when a difficult or important decision must be made: “a crisis point of history”.

Synonyms:
slump – depression

Well, ick. That sounds like a blast, doesn’t it? But I rather like “A time when a difficult or important decision must be made.” That sounds exciting, in a vaguely scary and stressful way.

I’m at a turning point in my life. I’m re-evaluating everything I thought was settled and done with. There is a certain exhilaration in this crisis, knowing that I have the freedom to reshape and redefine my life. It’s exciting and terrifying all at once.

The Tarot has been a valuable tool for me over the past fifteen years. It has helped me to gain clarity and insight on a variety of situations. My love and appreciation of the cards has only grown over time, unlike other aspects of my life which I’m now seeing in a new light. Therefore, I’m dedicating this blog to an exploration of this midlife crisis. (Or not-quite midlife crisis. I’m still young, darn it!) I will be taking a look at how the cards illustrate and inspire this new chapter in my life. Thank you for witnessing my journey.